Forsaken Camille

I'm sooo uncomfortable for the past few days although yesterday I spend my day at E-Games Office ~ had fun with the Girl Gamers and GMs. I dunno. Even I hide myself being joyful ~ I really feel that I'm still broken.

I woke up at 10am, but still I'm lying on my bed. I'm starring at my small window... Thinking of someone... then closed my eyes... reminiscing our moments... openned up again my eyes... and tears fell down on my cheeks. Again, I closed my eyes and hugged my pillow.

Again, I'm currently playing FIX YOU by Coldplay over and over again. Let me share you the lyrics:

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just watch you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Also listening depressing songs like "When you're gone by Avril Lavigne", "Somewhere by Nightwish" etc...

It seems that he is happy and doing well right now even without me. Who knows that there is really someone who deserves his love. A girl who is very understanding, open for everything, who never brags alot, who is soooooooooo sweet and who never gets mad in every way. I know that I'm not that typical girl. I'm not sweet.

I can't continue this post anymore.. coz I'm not doing well.